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At Church this morning a story was told that everyone knows. Jesus went to a wedding and turned water into wine. Funny it was his mother that said, Come on Son. This is going to be terrible if something isn't done. Something ordinary as Vicky said into something extraordinary. Which made me think of my life. I have always said what ever doesn't kill you makes you stronger.  I am sure Vicky reads and goes where did she get that from. But I think of some of the situations in life that I have not only struggled through but come out on the side better for. Here are a couple examples that came to mind this morning.

I had a boyfriend that threatened suicide and left the situation, but then lived with a person that actually tried to kill himself and helped him through it. That was the first time at the age of 23 that I tried to understand depression and why some get worse and others get better. What happens after 72 hours of being Baker Acted as they call it in Florida when you spend your mandatory 72 hours in psychiatric care. What makes you better after 72 hours I asked the doctor. He asked me you don't think your friend is better. I said no how could anyone be any more ready to face the world today than he was on Sunday when he was taken to the hospital. Those words ended a friendship. The Dr met with my friend and said your friend does not feel that you are better and that you need to stay. Well the Dr saw the true colors. No more home after 72 hours but he spent a few more days and got a little more help. The Dr then let my friend call me and cuss me up and down until they decided it was going too far. Because it was my fault. I was to blame for him having to stay. Or was I to blame for him actually getting help.

I have so many stories. I had a customer at the store when I was about 26 that was a known prostitute and it had been thought that she was writing bad checks. Well she came through my line and was making a pretty expensive purchase and I just said I have to verify funds I will be right back and I walked to the office just to see what she would do. Well you think you know what happens next, no way I could have guessed that this lady would bend over as though she was going to pick something off the bottom shelf and as she stood up she fell to the floor having a seizure. I called 911 had the paramedics come. I ripped up the check and put it in her wallet. Never saw her again. But the best part was the old man that walked up to the front counter as my cashier is holding the ladies head so she did not hit anything and I was on the phone with the paramedics and this old man walks up to me in the office and says what do I have to do to get someone to get my pictures. I laugh as I remember my response. Sir as soon as I get this lady off my floor I will happy to get your pictures. Some people don't even see what is going on around them and others step right into it.

These are not days in any ones life but days in my life. This is not turning water to wine but it is digging in and getting through whatever I have somehow gotten into.  I think of Mother Teresa and think didn't she ever want to take a day off from always being the one. I know I am no Mother Teresa because I have days that I think that I want a break. Today, I don't want to be the one. I don't want to get involved. But when the situation presents itself you either walk away from the lady having the seizure or you do something to get her help. I just can't walk away.

I do it for anyone. Just present your situation and I will help you or drag you through it. Help you get better and see the light at the end of the tunnel. Which I find funny I can show you the light that some days I can not see. That again goes back to Vicky and her speaking of people having faith. That your faith sometimes gets weak when you are in trouble but mine always gets stronger. The more down I feel the more I do believe that there has to be someone or something dragging me through.

I am going to end with some of my favorite songs of Faith. When I am my saddest I like to listen to music and sing along. And the words are everything. Thankfully for life's ups and downs. I am on an up swing. So here is to hoping you are open to being strong for others or making something ordinary into something extraordinary for someone else.

Here I am Lord
How Great Thou Art
Amazing Grace
Silent Night
Let there be Peace on Earth

Blogging Update

So, if you have been following along for the past few months I have spilled my guts in the middle of the night just to get things off my mind. Tonight I am working on another project that if I didn't feel so sick it would drive me to drink. Kidding. I am however sick. So while sitting up tonight I thought I would review some of what I have written and looked back at who has been reading along. In November I did a blog on blogging and offered the opportunity for anyone that would like to share to post and as long as it was appropriate by my standards I would publish it. Well no takers. The offer is always open. So I thought I would share where a few friends and a blogging website has taken me. We are almost to 600 views in the last 5 months on this blog.

I find that to be amazing. Tonight I looked at the map again to see where my readers are from and found some new people are reading along that I do not know.

The top spot is of course the USA.

2. Philippines
3. Sweden
4. Germany
5. United Kingdom
6. France
7. Russia
8. Israel

By the way if I don't know you can post a comment and let me know how you came to find me.

I would like to thank the readers that read along and if you are my friend and reading glad to have you in my life. If it wasn't for real friends and Brian these last 8 months would have been unbearable. If by chance somehow you are reading and find yourself in a terrible place and you do not know how to get out or resolve the problem. Seek help. You are not alone. There are other people that can help you find the answers you are looking for. But the worst thing you can do is try to get through a bad thing by yourself.  Sometimes you need a friend to drag you through it or out of it. And if you don't have a friend let me know. I am a good listener as well.

Happy and Healthy 2013