I am starting with a short list of things I want to do this year.
Write more.
Cry less.
Exercise more.
Eat better.
Like I said short list. So I have started off with writing more. I wrote a blog on the 3rd and here it is only the 8th and writing again. Good start. Right direction. Cry less. Talked to someone yesterday about that. And am feeling in a much more positive mood since I woke up yesterday. This does not change over night. Come on I may be depressed at times but I am not manic. I know people that are and wow. Their mood swings will knock you over. So again baby steps. I want to do more things but I always seem to never have time. Don't know if it is the fact we are on the up swing of winter. The days are now getting longer. I know it has only been a few weeks since but more sunlight is better for me than the darkness. Get it sunshine and shadows. I need more light and less dark. So again. I feel like I am moving forward.
On the exercise and eat better front. I walk at work. Usually it is a lap and a half around the building that I work in on my 15 minute breaks. I don't like to walk when it is dark so I have only been walking once and if the weather isn't good. I don't walk but yesterday it was nice out and I walked 2 and a half times around the building and still had time to spare and wasn't out of breath and felt pretty good when I was done. I also bought myself a new exercise game for the wii and am looking forward to trying it out tomorrow when I am off. Don't like to exercise with an audience. Which brings me to my whole new year new me plan. We just had a shift bid at work and I have the same days off but will be going into work an hour later 4 days a week. So I will have one hour 4 days a week to myself before work. The plan is for that to be me time. Turn off the tv and do what I want to do before I have to leave for work. Exercise, write and cook.
Now as for the eating better. I have been doing baby steps for a long time but my body doesn't seem to care what I cut out. You know quite a while back I cut out soda. I now have about one soda a week. Sometimes not even that. I drink unsweet tea with lemon please. The lemon is for my throat. I talk a lot at work and like the soothing lemon in my tea. So then I cut out fries. If I eat fast food I will just get a sandwich and a drink. Tea. Then I decided I could cut out the bread sometimes and just get chicken nuggets at Chick-fil-a but I am getting sick of them and the calorie difference isn't that much. So I must do something else. I do like real food and I do like to cook but when you get up at 10 and have to be at work at 12:30 and have no ambition. Well it isn't often that I have gotten up in the last year and cooked something before work. I have put a few things in the crock pot but with Brian's picky taste and no veggies for him it is hard to come up with things to make that are different. But I am going to try to make vegetable and eat them more.
Speaking of vegetables, yesterday I was told my weepiness is in part due to my body not producing enough serotonin. And I looked online very carefully for foods that help your body produce more. Funny first thing was spinach. I find it funny because all my life I have been anemic and it wasn't until 3 years ago I had a blood transfusion and a procedure to help with that and I am much better on that front. The funny part people say eat red meat to help with anemia but I always ate spinach to try to help because anything beats an iron pill. Trust me on that one. But the symptoms of anemia and depression well I know they are not the same but the same things are on the list so when I was already tired and rundown from my anemia and then you add a little depression for good measure. I never had the energy to do anything. So just one more ironic (get it iron-ic) thing for me to improve on this year.
My hour of writing is up and that was one of the goals to make it so I could do something productive in an hour and get on with my day. I really wanted to write today about history and Florida and that Clearwater turns 100 years old this year. Guess I will save that for another day.
Have a great day and Happy New Year.
